Julius...it is perfectly ok to cry your heart out...I lost my beautiful mother in 1998 and still cry as the older you get you want them more in your life and the pain experienced evolves in a different way. Life puts you through many things and you reflect on all that they went through and wishes left unfulfilled...my mother always wanted to visit the Taj Mahal...I will go there one day and take her photo with me...they are never forgotten as their essence resides within you....urging you to carry on no matter what.